My ex-boyfriend and I broke up about a year ago. Months went by and I still thought about him and cared for him deeply. Last summer, I was dealing with personal and family issues that spiraled me even deeper into depression. I became reckless and impulsive and would hook up with many guys. During this period, my ex’s friend started texting me. He was flirting and I wasn’t interested but we talked a little. I was trying to be polite. Eventually he would pressure me to send nudes, but I refused. However, I made a terrible mistake and sent nude pictures one night because I wanted him to stop bothering me.
I know this was a stupid decision and I regretted it immediately, however I have always had a problem being coerced by men. I was not in a good mental state. I regretted what I'd done immediately and asked the friend not to tell my ex, and he said of course he wouldn't. I was able to get myself out of the dark place with the help of my therapist and medication. My ex and I became friends again and I expressed to him that I had strong feelings for him, however he made it obvious he did not want to be with me.
Recently, we have been on better terms. We have mutual friends so we see each other. However I found out it's all been ruined. My ex called me last week, angry because his friend had shown him my nude pictures. Now he’s even more convinced we're never getting back together. I know I’ve ruined things. I am so genuinely sorry and I just want things to be right again. I don't know what I was thinking when I sent the pictures and I regret it so much. I feel as though I've made the biggest mistake of my life. Is there any way I can fix this?